i'm so tired of caring
unfortunately for me, i am kind and good. which means i want to be helpful. being an introverted and neurodivergent person is both a blessing and a curse.
but lucky for me! i have a customer service job where i am the one to go to for help and answers! just the best. regardless of all that, i do really try to help. i've done more at my job probably than was expected of me at least based on....previous performances by others. but man is it so exhausting. i end every day completely drained and all i did was sit at a desk in front of a computer.
its not like im going out and seeking people to help. so maybe i am kind but not good. but i just know my limits and thats too much for me.
i do wish sometimes that i didn't care. that i could wave everyone off and say "sorry idk try someone else". others seem to do that no problem. even if its not my job i will be like one moment let me google that for you, you idiot cause you couldn't do it yourself!
anyway im pretty tired from being a hero so im gonna go to bed.