i have everything i need
a goal i had at the beginning of this year was to leave social media behind which i have since accomplished. i wasn't super active on it to begin with, i used to post a lot more in my 20s and really tried to make my life seem interesting. eventually i realized that im not very interesting so i kinda stopped sharing. but i was still scrolling regularly.
most recently i got rid of pinterest which was kinda my last feed scrolling app and i can feel my brain quiet. im not thinking about the next cool thing to buy for my apartment, the next fun stationary item or a cool new outfit or pair of shoes that i saw on pinterest. i dont look at my own apartment and think man i wish i had all these cool things but instead i look at what i do have and i recognize how i purchased all of these things with money i worked hard for and without asking from anyone else. i have all kinds of fun things already and should appreciate and get the most out of what i have. i dont need more.
i have nice little tech items to entertain me, i have a comfortable bed (although i could use a new pillow to help with some neck pain). my cats have toys and a fun wall of shelves just for them to lay and enjoy and have fun. i have a clean and safe home. i have food to eat, access to a warm shower, clean clothes to suit the weather. i have my basic needs met and luxuries to enjoy on top of that. i dont need to see what everyone else has and desire that too.